Books

Before the Fear Had a Name

A Novel of Survival, Awakening, and the Light That Refused to Let Him Go

New York City, 1992. Eli Shepherd arrives chasing fame, beauty, and a future brighter than the Ohio town he left behind. Instead, he steps into a city drowning in loss and a diagnosis that threatens to erase him.
At the edge of despair, a radiant Presence intervenes, pulling him back from the brink and igniting a journey that is gritty, holy, queer, and unforgettable.
Before the Fear Had a Name is a raw, poetic story about shame, courage, chosen family, and the moment a single breath becomes a second chance at life.

• Queer resilience and chosen family
• The HIV/AIDS crisis in the early 1990s
• Surrender, and spiritual intervention
• Beauty, shame, and the search for belonging
• Awakening in the middle of a collapsing world

The Great Message: The Tone of Home

A transmission for those who are ready to remember.

This is not a book of beliefs. It is a remembrance.

The Great Message is a living transmission about returning to Source, not as a distant heaven, but as a vibration you already carry. It speaks to the part of you that has always known: the separation was never real. You were never cut off. You only fell asleep to what you are.

The Tone of Home is the closing movement of this message, a collective awakening, a call to remember the sound of where you came from. These words are simple, raw, and direct. They are written for a world that is exhausted by fear and ready for truth.

This work is for those who sense that something vast is rising within them. It does not ask you to join anything. It asks you to remember what has always been true.

Inside these pages, you will explore:

• What it means to “return to Source” in a human life
• How awareness, energy, and love move through everything
• The illusion of separation and how it quietly governs our choices
• The call to awakening as a shared, not solitary, journey
• The Tone of Home: the frequency of who you truly are

The Final Seed

A Story of Destiny, Memory, and the Last Light Hidden Within Us

Before the world remembers the truth, one seed must awaken.
The Final Seed is a metaphysical novel about a young man who discovers that his life, his lineage, and every moment of suffering he’s endured were part of a design older than the world itself. As reality begins to fracture, he is drawn into a silent war between remembrance and forgetting, guided only by the faint pull of a truth he once knew but lost long ago.

Blending mystical revelation, human vulnerability, and cosmic purpose, The Final Seed explores what happens when one person becomes the tipping point for an entire awakening, not through power, but through becoming exactly who they were created to be.

• Destiny, remembrance, and the awakening of ancient memory
• The hidden architecture of consciousness
• The illusion of separation and the return to Source
• Human vulnerability as a catalyst for transformation
• The cosmic role of the “one who remembers”
• Love as the most powerful technology in existence

The Wounded Healer

Astrology for Those Who Transform Pain Into Purpose

Every astrologer can read a chart.
But only the awakened understand the wound.

In astrology, Chiron is the bridge between what hurts and what heals; the quiet passage between the life you live and the truth you remember. The Wounded Healer reveals how your deepest pain is not a curse but an initiation, guiding you toward the very service you were born to offer.

This soul-centered, accessible guide brings planets, signs, houses, and aspects into clear focus, showing how every part of your chart participates in your healing. At its heart lies a simple truth: what wounded you is the same place where your power was waiting.

• Chiron and the spiritual purpose of your wounds
• Planets, signs, and houses explained through soul language
• The connection between pain, awakening, and service
• Astrology as a map back to wholeness
• Turning personal history into spiritual authority
• Healing as remembrance, not repair